I Woke Up With No Panties

Being a woman, it's hard to this day to even share this story. I feel it's my duty to share my stories and here goes.

I was 11 and I loved my step father so much. He was my dad when my biological father wasn't. I called him dad and everything. My mom left to Peru one summer, I couldn't go because I couldn't get my passport. The night before she left I had a nightmare and went to my mom's bed. I laid right in between him and my mom. I fell asleep but got woken up to by my step father's fingers. He shoved his finger in my vagina and I woke up immediately. I didn't move because I was scared and didn't know what to do. I was so confused, he took it out and held me by my waist. Finally morning came around and I ran to my room. I locked myself in for the rest of the day. When my mom left for Peru, he forced me to go with him to the store. At that point I begged my friend's if I could stay with them until my mom came back but the one day I couldn't is when he forced me to go to the store with him. Only it was a sex store and I was scared but he told me to stay in the car. He showed me the dildo he got and I was in shock because I didn't understand what he was trying to say. I was lucky to have my best friend's mom pick me up and I never stayed in a room with him alone ever again nor did I sleep in between them regardless of how many nightmares I had.

Years later, they divorced, I never talked to him ever again. We moved in with my older cousin. My mom was out partying and my sister was sleeping when I snuck out at age 13 to see my boyfriend. When I came back my cousin asked me what I did and I told him nothing. He held me down and raped me. I told him to stop and I cried but he wouldn't let me go because he said he's the only one who can ever have sex with me. To this day I get scared being alone with him..

When I was 15 my best friend and I left my house and told our parents we were going to 711, when that wasn't our plan. We met up with our friends. One of them was a guy I was talking to who really liked me. He had a car and took us to his house. My best friend and I took shots and I took so many shots I blacked out. All I remember was being separated from my best friend and her crying my name out as I was in and out. I was raped by the guy I was talking to. He wasn't drunk, and I told him to stop but he didn't listen. He took us home and I woke up with no panties.

Those were my stories.

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