I never said anything because I thought I'd get in trouble.

I don't know what to do with this.

When I was around 12 my brother (older by two years) used to take me to the basement furnace room and finger me. He did it maybe three times. I never said anything because I thought I'd get in trouble. 

We were a regular family, mom, dad, older and younger brother. We got along okay - but after my brother married he started to treat me like shit. He had five kids. I had forgotten about the basement until the birth of his first child - a daughter. I was worried for her. I still said nothing. 

For years he never spoke to me unless it was to say something mean, insulting or demeaning. I never answered. We'd go to his house for all holidays. I told my parents I didn't want to go. My parents asked me to go "for them". 

Now it's just the two of us left. My dad died seven years ago, my younger brother five - he had two boys. I'm close to them, and my violators kids, but I've never told anyone. 

I have a son, he and his wife are grandparents. 

I haven't been to his house since my mom died three years ago. 

I still get invited every holiday. 

I hate him.

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